ZULIA ZAMRI

I have feelings

2011-05-07T07:19:00.000-07:00

I cant fly up towering the peak of the mountain top
I cant make the flowers bloom benevolently
I cant make it rain pours heavily on the rooftop
Nor make the sun shine more fiercely

I am only a girl, stuck in the ominous days were minds are set to messed up beside the pavement

Is this how I portray myself?
I refuse.
I am stronger than the thickest wood.
I can resist the thickest shred of knife you hurt me

But I have feelings

I am not perfect.
I am a girl.
Am I not perfect?
I’d like to think so.
Oh please, let me.
Am I to blame for this?

Would you care to stay by my side?

More than a woman

2011-03-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

Love me break me seal me hit me take me away
I am more than a woman
Spread me
I am more than a woman

Tell me I am erroneous
Truthfully it feels right
He will stay by my side-promises
Always been
Disappeared
But always been

Our love has born
Eyes like yours , it is a gimmick
Lips timid and rigid
So genuine more likely to be interpreted
Real, fantasized
This ceasing had let me gone astray

Gulf
Throw it , cast it away
No more to be remembered
Like mistakes can be deserted, erased and redo
Haunting hollows follows my tail of my repeated past

I am scarred .. It keeps on coming back

Buried six feet under
I hoped
But it has been thrown away
Sinful
How can I repair this devil’s covenant?

13/3/2011
#zulia zamri
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Always be my baby

2011-03-05T21:55:00.000-08:00

Gave me butterflies.
Got me High.
Made me skip a heart beat.
Triggered my adrenaline.
Jolted me with some curious case of lust.
Got my brains manipulated in mesmerism.
I love him.
It is just as simple as that.

Dato Syeikh Muzaffar Shah

2011-02-16T07:16:00.000-08:00

WHOALAMARKS!

Tadi right, as in just now,
Was like attending my class and all.
-Had French test today iaitu sangat mengarut-

Lepas ituuuu..
Whet to my housekeeping class.
On the briefing session, there was this 3 young man (or more) walking pass by.
Then everybody went silent.
I was so blur, because I only saw a guy wearing freaking jumpsuit.
But.. tengok macam handsome lah kan ?
Husha punya husha ..

ITS FREAKING DOTO SYEIKH MUZAFFAR SHAH wey going to walk pass by us..

Dayyum, semua numb gila.
Then he "perhaps" knows that we were clueless(predictable) , he begun to shook one of my class mate's hand.
Shook another, and then.. SHOOK MINE. Shook mine, you bloody kangaroos.

Shook MY freaking right precious hand .
~His precious hand and my precious hand~
Can you picture it?

Lepas itu.. Bila dia sudah pergi,
Semua orang jadi gila sungguh.
Ada yang histeria, ada yang still kaku, ada yang dapat asma.

OOUUH Feelings~

Tadi ada lipas lah masuk bilik (T~T)

16/02/2011

Seikhlas hati

2011-02-11T22:58:00.000-08:00

Ya Allah,
Hanya kepadamu aku mohon pertolongan, Hanya daripadamu aku mencari kasih, Hanya kepadamu aku menjunjung harapan..

Ya Allah..
Kau panjangkanlah nyawa kedua ibu bapaku. Sesungguhnya aku begitu mencari ketabahan diriku daripada mereka.
Kau murahkanlah rezeki kedua ibu bapaku, terutama ibuku, ya Allah. Sesungguhnya dialah insan yang sangat memerlukan belasan nikmat duniamu. Kau kurniakanlah ketenangan jiwa kepadanya. Kerana dialah satu satunya ibuku. Kuat, mengharungi ujian ujianmu.

Ya Allah..
Akulah satu-satunya insan yang terkapai-kapai mencari kasih..
Kau restuilah kasih keluargaku, janganlah kau musnahkan kebahagiaan mereka. Kerana kasih mereka, kasih ku jua. Tangisan mereka, tangisan aku juga.

Ya Allah..
Kau jauhkanlah rakan-rakanku dan orang yang sering bersamaku daripada penderitaan dunia dan akhirat. Sesungguhnya merekalah yang berada disisiku sepanjang aku mempelajari isi kandungan bumi yang kau cipta.

Ya Allah..
Kau belailah nasib orang-orang yang tidak mampu, keseorangan, dan lemah. Aku tidak terdaya.. untuk menolong mereka. Siapalah aku, Ya Allah.

Ya Allah.. Kau bukakanlah pintu hati mereka yang melakukan zalim kepada haiwan. Kasihan.. haiwan yang tidak bersalah, lalu dihukum dengan kejamnya.

Ya Allah.. Kau tariklah nasib-nasib malang orang islam dan bukan islam, ke jalan yang benar. Sesungguhnya kaulah pemberi peluang, kepada semua.

Aku pohon kepadamu ya Allah..
Kau tabahkanlan imanku, Teguhkanlah pendirianku, untuk persediaanku ke akhirat kelak.
Aku takut.. untuk menerima seksaan daripadamu ya Allah. Sesungguhnya akulah yang insan pelupa.. Lupa kepadamu, lupa kepada peganganku, lupa kepada diriku. Aku zalim, melupakan kasihmu, ya Allah.

Amin.

Little boy

2011-02-01T08:27:00.000-08:00

Little boy,
Why are you all unaccompanied and poignant? Where is your..

Because I want to be, little boy snapped.

Oh, you painted the pavement all black.
Is dim how you want your core to be?

I’m in pain.. I’m soaked in rain.. And I’m petrified.
The sky is pitch black at dark. I am safe with black.

But the sky is blue in the morning.
Its beautiful.
It’s tranquil.
It is never callous or jealous.
It has the sun to glisten your days, and belief.

I’m always here, in the dark corner of this boulevard.
Crawling and swarming for HIM . But he never comes back . For me.

Who is this ‘HIM’?

…

Come with me, little boy.
I shall keep you warm.
Never to liberate.
If you desire a thousand white sheets, I could surrender to you.
What about ‘HIM’?
Your sorrow is not worthy to be taken advantage of, child.
Tag along, and grow.

#zulia zamri

Fun swim with my rascals, daddy and mama

2011-01-30T06:03:00.000-08:00

Bukit Jalil golf club-The location
Semua orang jadi sewel

Azureen sleepover and gay madness Mior-Imran

2011-01-30T05:45:00.001-08:00

First of all, dah berkurun lah kan nak ajak dia datang rumah.. Baru sekarang dapat. Dah berzaman , abad kebarapa dah tahu ke tidak. HA. Tp dapat juga. Lepas tu, boleh pula bawak dia pergi taman, main dengan my two rascals.. Macam-macam la.
-Full blast aircon kasi dia selesema-

Si kiri ni lah yang nak goda boyfie saya.. Gila sebok die! .

Whatever it is.. I'm glad however we spent our time together, and how she got the chance to meet imran my sugar again and my kesayangan pet brother, Amir. ;)

28-29/01/2011
#zulia zamri

My utter dream come true

2011-01-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

It’s a miracle,

I’ve been waiting for you,

Where have you been?

Finally you are here,

I’ll love you all my heart,

I’ll give you my all,

I’ll endow you with the best,

Nothing could compare this feeling..

This awe inspiring flash,

You are so genuine,

You are my yearn come true,

Thank you for answering my prayers, god..

You are my prayers,

Be nothing but fast,

Be nothing but strong and independent,

Dream, believe, think deep, and be kind,

I’ll be by your side always, way up high , or down low,

To guide you, to be your blanket..

To help your every step,

Nothing could compare.. this feeling,

Your arrival is beautiful, Kamal Arif.

#zulia zamri

Could I ?

2011-01-25T03:30:00.000-08:00

Could I seize you all the miniature light bugs on the ample sky,

Heave you the moon shining grey,

Imprison the indistinct harsh wind,

Everything I ever hallucinate of.. I shall surrender to you, my love

But I wish I could..

I just wish I could.

Should I enlighten you with lies? –Promises.

Where Mountains can descend,

When hurricane can initiate,

When the underground becomes horrendous..

Do you love me as I am?

Like how I’ve been dishearten my brains to execute your desires?

Do you worth my promises..

Do I deserve this sin?

Dramatari

2011-01-22T10:50:00.001-08:00

We watched Geliong dramatari just now. My room mates and I had a blast. Definitely enjoyed seeing dancers among our friends to perform. The boys were so fun (dancers).

Oh!, my room mates are Ummu and Elly.
Azu didn't had the chance to come . It is okay. Maybe next time, la ha?

Hebat lah wey.

22/1/2011
#zulia zamri

Kerteh Mesra Mall

2011-01-22T10:33:00.001-08:00

Hello assalamualaikum!! Both mimi and sha entered my room. ''Hey yall wanna join us to go mesra mall"
Well, sortah sounded like that.
Azu and I were quite excited . But we ended up waiting like three hours.
Tambahan pula lah kan, kena mengurat dengan pak cik guard.
At first we thought we had worn something tight. But.. the folks actually just wanna talk with us. So, LAYANLAH.
Pergi dengan kereta sewa lah kan . Rented Kancil for Rm20.
It was cool, hanging out with they all.

Oh yeah did I mentioned we lepak at Mc'Donalds first before going to Kerteh?
Whatever. We had our lungs laughed out for jokes.

At Mesra mall, it was fine.

On the journey back, Mimi drove. She was fine.
Then Azu took the turn . *fingers crossed*
Like a roller coaster wey, it was fun.
Berhenti tgh jalan kat simpang pula tu. Nasib baik tak ada kereta.
Oh Awesome times .

21/01/2011
#zulia zamri

Boytoy

2011-01-17T21:37:00.000-08:00

I love you.

Although, you are such a pain in the ass, I can curse you how much I want but will have nothing to lose from you. Sweet. Its wicked, how u make me want to laugh immediately after I hear your adorable stinking voice. It's is so gay. I hate it the way you make me weak every time u arrive at my door. You are just a favorite mess in my head. Enchanting, in a weird way. Go away, I don't need you (I'm totally bluffing).

Sick! Sick!

#zulia zamri

hello! blogger

2011-01-17T02:27:00.000-08:00

Like, hello.
Err sooooo, how am I gonna say this? No, okay, oh yes, hm. I'm oblivious.

Can I have this?

Sure.. douche

#zulia zamri

Sleepover baybay

2010-12-29T09:22:00.002-08:00

We had so much fun. No bonding required. Just pulls and bumps.

#28/12/2010

I miss my mummy

2010-12-28T03:18:00.000-08:00

I miss you mummy..
I miss you kakak..
I miss you syra..

I miss my kardashian sisters!

I miss looking at mummy's fun laughter.
I blew the chance off by not following you guys to kelantan.

You guys are the best. I can never feel less at home when I am with you guys.
I cant wait when mummy starts to work, and get all dolled up again.

Me staying in bandar kinrara is such a hell. I love you guys.

Hey Genting Highlands =]

2010-11-28T07:30:00.000-08:00

I love you guys.. But sometimes (a lot of times) you guys can be such a pain in the ass! =D

#zulia zamri 28/11/2010

My surprise anniversary + belated birthday cake

2010-11-28T06:24:00.001-08:00

Thanks sayang =]

Gals/ Cousin-sisters day out

2010-11-22T21:58:00.000-08:00

I love you girls!

#zulia zamri 21/11/2010

Some things I cant swallow by my own.

2010-11-19T21:26:00.000-08:00

I've been so drained.. of having a hole in my heart. Since I was little, I have always taken care of my self. I buy my own barbie. I hushed my way to bed. Hidden my self under the table away from the storm. Pick up some lipstick without any regulations. Dry my tears away by just swallowing harsh breath. Acting ecstatic when I'm actually torn.. I am discontent, a realist. I am covetous to see a jovial family right in front of me. I need somebody to take care of me. Noorul Syhakirin Fahlazi is always there when I was self terminating. I know I have a lot of devoted friends, but I can be so fragile when I am with her. She defines tough phenomenal woman.

People have problems... But she just ease it up for me like no one else can.

I may took this photo alone, but she was right beside me giggling and said I'm a fun crap.

She literally be there for me, as soon that she knows I'm miserable.

I can always count on her, and always hope that she would count on me too.
She is my rationality.

MANGO - dream come true

2010-11-17T22:24:00.000-08:00

No, my dream is not to have a large mansion.
No, my dream is not to have a dashing red Ferrari parking on my garage.
My dream is to have the fur coat I saw back in few years. When I was a naive secondary-year-old.

Amazing how soft, unaffordable, my desires could be. It is such a womanizer.
I fell in love.
MANGO leopard fur coat, had me fallen in love.

Yesterday, was a dream come true.
My aunt bought me that coat.
My eyes was sparkling! My tummy was wobbly. Hands were clammy. I was going to barf- look how ecstatic I was. I'm so blessed.

Yes, exactly. I own this now. It is in my wardrobe. How can I not get this coat hug, and wrapped around my body without having me oozing out. Darn it, it is such a lust . I could kill for this! (Of course I am exaggerating).

Alright, you must be wondering why I need this coat? Well it is because I am going to Korea.
But Korea is not the devil's advocate. It is the COAT! Think about the COAT!

But I tried some other coats too... like:-

This coat is actually even better. It fits my body so right... But, it is rm59 more expensive.

Do you know the song the city of blinding lights by U2 ?
Well, that much it explains my worship to this piece of sin.

#zulia zamri 18/11/2010

Feel me

2010-11-14T09:00:00.000-08:00

Amagash...
Heels aren't killing me.
Weird.
I have big hair and I'm skinny and I love it. Uh'huh that is right.

No, I am not a bimbo.

#zulia zamri 15/11/2010

Ghost

2010-11-06T06:57:00.000-07:00

‘’I'm all out of faith
This is how I feel
I'm cold and I am shamed
Lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed
Into something real
I'm wide awake and I can see
The perfect sky is torn
You're a little late, I'm already torn’’

Couldn’t deem that the song heard had engrave a thousand mesmerizing tranquil connotation.

Thy song immortally fools around in persona’s ears… Teasing enthusiastically.

Shame, shame, shame as lips recited lies that persona couldn’t ever appreciate herself.

With unregretful plays chanted, her eyes starring wall to wall, going mad?

Sitting by the unlimited end of a large blue mirage, eyes were wet dimmed by the feelings, perplexed and impaired.

Body was wrapped with arms so tight never to let go.

Two, became one… it was so cold.

Thy persona’s ghost brought contentment.

Alone, never regret it.

Never regret it.

Too beautiful… never will persona regret it.

So gentle and calm held by the ghost who lives like the river… fast and forward.

Let him go.

Pay attention.

#zulia zamri 9.58 p.m 6/11/2010

Today

2010-11-03T07:24:00.000-07:00

Today, I am tired.
Done my accounts adjustment revision..

Shut up and let me go, hey!

#zulia zamri 10.28p.m 03/11/2010

My nature oppose to plannings.

2010-11-02T09:04:00.000-07:00

TOTALLY, i know.
I think every one of my friend has experience the philosophy of disappointment from me that perhaps at least once i have canceled a plan.
I'm really a ghastly planner.
Its not like I don't want to make it happen like puff! , though.
I al-oh-vee-ee my friends, I really do.
But I guess making plans need more convenience of TRANSPORTATION, hello.
Guys, I have to say, I'm not that fortunate like most of you .
Complains, complains, whatever it is I have no regrets.
Shit... what am I crapping about.

Toodles!

#zulia zamri 12.11a.m 3/11/2010

Nasi kukus

2010-10-31T04:58:00.000-07:00

Yeah, heard of it? Have you taste it?
Dang guys I'm eating it everyday.
Should try the luscious piquant piece of cuisine man.
Oh the taste of the chicken.. got me dreaming of it every night.
Ay mummay, why hadn't you introduce me to this mouth watering extravagant?
Aish my life had been to waste !
JUST kidding.
My cliques said that they are already bored with eating them.
Tisk tisk, they are going to miss it.
OH and i haven't even try Nasi Koboi.
why are they called like that anyway?
Weird out, I still do not apply my self to go and check it out.
Not too tempting, not too worthy of my rm4.

#zulia 8.08.pm 31/10/2010

-mum

2010-03-06T03:21:00.000-08:00

mummy.
Zulia blur lah . Lately otak ni asyik pending je . And asyik nak termenung .
Pastu , pagi pagi otak lambat pick up.
Takut dapat Alzeimer.

Err~
Nak makan pill ape ek?
yang boleh cergaskan otak.
Oh and lately pun selalu tersasul.

And believe me , mummy , I do not know a lot of typical malay terms XD. Can you believe your daughter ?
Ini seperti cabaran di Tanah Melayu

Mummy, bace ni.Blur~Blank

2010-02-22T06:43:00.000-08:00

Otak da tepu la nabace sumua management topics ni. Baru dua chapter.
ERR~~
Tolong la zulia. zulia buntu. Saye nadekan. Tapi buntu. haha.
Harapan la dekan.

Mummy ohhh mummy, zulia nadekan. tapiiiiiii.. dah la practicle susah dapat markah . Pastu Pastu MGT lecturer die buat we all mengantuk , la mummy. Macam mana ??

Pastu pastu Ctu=agama agama subject. Lecturer tak ajar langsung!
And tibe tibe ade test.
Tak pernah ade class pun.
Nak mara pun ade.
Tapi tipu la kalau zulia kate tak sedap bangun lambat di pagi hari ahad sedangkan sepatutnye ade class kan?

Waaaaaaaaaaaa

Banyak betul la bende kane buat.
MGT assignment
F&B assignment
CTU assignment
MGT test
F&B test
Ctu test
COD preparation

Dah nyawa ikan dah ni. Kan bagus je kalau kalau kalau boleh goyang kaki je kat rumah pastu duit jatuh dari langit kan ? GEDUSH !!! *jatuh rm1000000000 kat kepale zulia.

OOOOOOOoouuuuu im going crazy~

Nak keje la.
Pastu beli kerete beli rumah beli kucing .

Oh oh .. kakak dah start keje balik kan?
Daddy bangge je . Hantar sms kat zulia sampai due kali! Amboi amboi.

Zulia perlukan kata kata perangsang yang the bom macam WOW !

SINGAPORE vacation

2009-12-19T04:13:00.000-08:00

1st day:

Jurong Bird park "encountered an eagle that a was named JUNIOR=Believe it"
Show off , much ?^^
People there are so different. More forward perhaps ? As much I can say , they dont care to overdress ! Eg, a lady wore a red dress to a freaking bird park. I admire that. Here in Malaysia , if you do that, probably you will be judged by the public.
Spent the night at Naza hotel =johor

2nd day:
Check in to Albert court ,SG.
Sentosa island "Romance on the rise baby !"

The beach , the island it self are so awesome . It has many stops, and each and every stops has their own uniqueness. There , there is no such thing as JAIS man , so you can do the hell whatever you want to your partner. PDA much? Oh , bikini bods everywhere !
Entered the water world

I touched disgusting fishes , ew.
Watched seal lion show .
one world ... adorable .
Watched Song of the sea show

Spent a moment at vivo city, cam whoring.

3rd day:
Went here by taxi , surprisingly , the taxi driver was extremely polite . Finding a seriously polite taxi driver in Malaysia ? You can kiss your own ass.
Duck tour "land tour then went into the lake by the vehicle it self"
Tour guide explained that in SG , chineses consume 76% ,14% malays, 8% indians and the rest are minorities. Oh oh , there is a floating football field on water there.
Singapore flyer

Hippo tour

River cruise

Orchard road "Shopping!"
Heaven for the girls.

4th day:
Mustafa road "Shopping"
But a lausy road for me.
Night safari

Watched animal show
The host was so funny. Anyway , I saw all kinds of weird animals in there, and so close. Too close. Scary indeed.
also watched some heart pumping brass band, and dancing christmas trees.

5th day:
Bye bye Singapore
Home -period-

2nd aniversary

2009-09-23T20:18:00.000-07:00

Our anniversary was suppose to be this 1st october .. But by then im already at Terengganu . So we celebrated it last night , on 23rd of september.. then the story begins. TADAAA

"hey g la sms daddy to minta permission .." i said .. and imran was like .."ok .. ala malu nya ! " then he did .. and daddy replied .. "okay .. can . But no discos n kareoke.." i was like .. wud ?? XD

that evening before the take off ..

"OMG OMG OMG tolong sayeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee !!! i shouted and shouted and shouted again around the house . Got everybody irritated . i was smiling every second .. its like going to be a date .. my first real DINNER DATE , with a guy .. not just a guy.. he is my sweetness candy cherry .. imran .. my dream guy . Okay , skip tht , ill exaggerate . I blew dry my hair .. feeling the hot wind through my hair , i couldnt stop day dreaming . I put on my make up first .. then i put on the dress .. my new white dress . Kakak was like .. staring at me , grinning , smirking and all sorts of expressions . Daddy saw me in the dress .. and immediately chanted .. "Anak aku da besar" .. then daddy were like .. " hey u tanak pakai bracelet ni ke ? u tanak pakai ni ke ? u tanak lepaskan rambut ke ? n bla bla bla " =) .. After all my getting ready was done , it was fun , daddy couldnt stop pestering me .. "is he here yet" like every 5 seconds.

HORN*

imran has arrived with the gent-2.. Oh boy , how i was nervous tht moment .. like SHITNESS !! is this really happening .. he was at my front door ... so handsome .. Oh no im falling for him again .. DAMN . I was blushing , but covered it up by talking to my bibik . then walked slowly to the gate n gave the widest smile ever. *melt melt melt* then the night begun..

He parked his car at sungei wang .. and we walked to starhill.. observing the night life, i was impressed .. its quite nice . Holding his hand while trotting our way to starhill , we were oblivious what to have for dinner . But we decided to eat at JAKE's charcoal steak . Oh boy , expensive .. But i wouldnt have to pay of course . It was all on him ! =D

See .. how charming he was .

later tht night we went for a stroll .. and sat beside pavillion .. stared at LV store . and took more pictures ..

We waited for kakak N , imran's relative to get my university book . imran n kakak N were really thoughtful to give me those books .. i really need it .

thanks kakak N . thanks imran .

Then We went home .. YAdi YADA YADA .. n lalalala

whatever it is .. all my first times are always with him . he means a lot ..

see how a careful girl like me can fall off her feet easily by him .